SPONTANEITY

To Thine Own Self Be True

I should be studying for my accounting midterm right now, but I can’t help but think about the past few weeks.

I spent the past two years trying to fix something that can’t be fixed that I forgot myself. I spent the past two years trying to change who I was because that person thought “I wasn’t my old self anymore”; that college and the people that I surrounded myself with changed me. But I realize now that that wasn’t the case. Yes I changed. But it isn’t because I was becoming a whole new person going to parties, drinking, doing crazy things I never thought I would do back in high school. I was changing because I was trying too hard to fix something that just can’t and won’t work out. I was trying too hard to be the person you wanted me to be, when in reality, that was changing who I really am. 

Now, i’m more motivated than ever. I’m excited for the challenges I’m about to face. I’m looking forward to finding myself again. Becoming the person I was before I met you; and even better, becoming something greater than that.